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My 27th BirthdayΒ 


27 Years Ago ,I was born on this day πŸ˜‡πŸ˜‡

An angel fall from the sky ,that’s me πŸ˜›πŸ˜œ

Ohhhhh what the hell Was I thinking?! To come here to Earth lol

I thought it was going to be fun,easy and beautiful Journey ,so far it’s fun but So challenging and too much drama ughhh

I’m trying to enjoy it as much as I can but sometimes I just can’t take it anymore and I feel like I wanna give up and Quit 

But I always remind myself that I’m here for a reason and that the best is yet to come inshaAllah ^_^

Life can be tough and harsh but it wasn’t meant to be easy

We are here to evolve spiritually ,to love ,learn ,explore and spread love ,light ,kindness and awareness πŸ’™

I’m here as a spiritual being on a spiritual Journey ,trying my best to achieve my mission on Earth to spread light,love and awareness and I pray to God to help me achieve the purpose And the the mission I was created for 😊

I feel lucky and blessed to be chosen for such a big role that gonna change the whole planet InshaAllah πŸ™‚

So May God guide me through every step on this journey and be with me always ,Amen πŸ™πŸ’™

Happy 27th birthday to me ,I’m 9 now 😍

2+7= 9 (this means the ending and the beginning of a new age)

I feel that this year will be my best year everrrr inshaAllah πŸ™πŸ’™

God,I’m eternally grateful to You πŸ’™






Simple woman


Today I met this simple woman who told me about her story although she is uneducated ,she loved to learn and went to a night school just to learn the basics of education and she told her kids i want you to have the education that i didn’t had and let your children have a better education than you too 

This simple woman has innate wisdom and believes so much in the value of education ,something not many educated people are aware of 

She also spoke of God and told me we have no way of knowing what will happen to us next that’s why we should surrender everything to God and let God take care of our destiny ,i felt like this is a message from God to me . Those words reminded me of a struggle i am going through every day which is how to “Surrender” 

I try my best but every time i fail to let go and surrender ,why? Because i think I am too smart ,I overthink and analyze everything and I think I can always find a way to make things work no matter how hard it seems to be!

It’s my Ego I know ,my Ego thinks If I let go ,I will lose and be lost .

My ego thinks letting go means giving up .My Ego is scared to death of what will happen next ,uncertainty drives my ego crazy and it can’t comprehend that surrender is the most powerful act I can do to let my destiny unfold the way it is meant to be

But it is okay I don’t want to make an enemy of my Ego ,I approve of it and its fears and I am aware of it and I always remind myself of how surrender is the best way to reach my destination 

Do I stop trying?! No actually I keep trying and taking actions but I know when to stop myself and let it go and remind my ego it’s okay to be afraid but it is for your own good to believe in a higher ,smarter and more powerful force than yourself which is God 

My Ego agrees for a while then returns back again to going back and forth between freaking out and pushing me to do something 

It is good to keep my ego under control ,i am the one in control and i chose to surrender and see what will happen 

Back to this woman again I was amused and amazed at her simplicity and wisdom and the way she carried herself 

Her message is simple yet wise

Education is important ,keep learning to understand life

Believe in the power of God ,He is really the one in control ,surrender to God so you dont have to worry or think about anything in life 

All I can say is Amen πŸ™‚

Me in a nutshell



This is me according to my birthchart .if you are into Astrology ,you will totally get this thing

Sun : scorpio (An Enigma)

Sun is the core you ,your basic identity

I’m scorpio through and through

Moon: virgo (stability)

Moon is the planet about emotions and those deep emotional desires

Mercury : sagittatius (A playful)

Mercury is the planet of communication and it is about who you speak ,think and communicate your ideas and thoughts

I must admit ,i speak like a sag ,too straightforward and to the point ,could be so philosophical sometimes too

And i have that famous foot in the mouth quality like most sags ,I tell it like it is and I don’t care really what others would think of me !

Venus : capricorn (dependable)

Venus is the planet of love and beauty. it defines the style of your love,how do you love and how do you see love

Yes that’s true ,I’m always there for the people I love and they can totally depend on me

Mars : Scorpio (vengeful)

Mars is the planet of war and it’s about power ,anger and conflict

Well ,I have to admit that when someone gets me so mad or hurt me in any way ,I think of ways to get even with this person but sometimes I just calm myself down and find it in myself to forgive .Although it is not always easy to stop seeking revenge and choosing forgiveness instead but with trial and error ,I found out that Forgiveness is always better becoz it’s a gift i give to myself first

Although revenge may sound appealing and satisfying at first but you end up hurting yourself and you dont gain or learn anything while forgiveness’ rewards are countless 


My 25th Birthday



“This picture from Google,I wish I had that cake πŸ˜› ”

I woke up today knowing it’s my 25th birthday ,I had that sense of melancholy like I have lived that much ,a quarter of a century and achieved nothing at all, it’s not my lack of trying but somehow failure due to circumstances out of my control seem a repeated theme in my life!!
Sometimes I wonder why am I here? What am I doing?!
There’s a theory in astrology that says we were living in the astral ,looking for a channel to come to life ,that channel is your parents
There is another religious theory that says that we were living as spiritual beings somewhere in the sky,begging God to forgive us and let us enter heaven and God gave us the chance to come to this earth to prove that we are worthy of forgiveness ,we are spiritual beings living in physical body and that’s our test ,our actions speak louder than our words and while some forget it’s all a test ,thus committing crimes and making mistakes and taking everything in life way too seriously!!
So my wishes of being born into a different era and my old feeling of I-don’t-wanna-be-here,I-wish-I was-never born is no longer valid according to these theories becoz we choose to come to this life , we are responsible for everything and that’s a scary thought but I believe it’s true becoz God is justice and He gave us freedom of choice
Life is just ,,,I don’t know ,I really don’t ,I guess I will take life one day at a time but to think backward or forward isn’t helpful,for the past depresses me and the future makes me anxious with its ambiguity
Anyways I wish my new year to be different on every level ,physically,emotionally and mentally
Physically I want to be fitter
Emotionally I want to be more stable ,to be in love and more optimistic
Mentally I want to know everything about everything ,to be a walking encyclopedia πŸ™‚
I feel that I grow older and wiser
I feel I’m still the same somehow ,my naΓ―vetΓ© is still there
Like there’s a part of me that refuses to grow up ,that i’m stil like a little girl who wants just to have fun and the world is big place that full of excitement and wonder
I want to help people ,I want to make the world a better place
I want to fly high and touch the sky
I want to be close to God
I want to change ,and to quote Ghandi “I want to be the change I want to see in the world”
I want life to be easier,simpler and more fun
I want to be there for all the people who want my help
I want to be there for myself
I want others to be there when I need them
I want to change the world and leave my print
I want to be happy ,to live life full of joy ,laughter and fun

I always wished to have a surprise birthday party ,that wish never come true yet but today something touched me ,to find your closed and loved ones remember your birthday is something priceless and so touching .
To find my best friend eager to celebrate with me, just the two of us going out and having fun makes me feel blessed and truly lucky

While I’m writing this,I’m hearing the azan for el Asr prayer πŸ™‚

Allah Akbar ,Allah is the greatest
As long as ,Allah is on my side I mean taking care of me ,I’m not worried ,I’m not worried at all πŸ™‚

Welcome 25 bring it on ^^