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When I get angry

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I have noticed this weird thing about myself ,anger motivates me like not any other emotion .when I get angry ,I feel an impulsive rush to do anything ,anything that is too wild,crazy or just plain irrational!

It seems that I only get to be so impulsive when I get So angry that nothing can cools me off like taking immediate action to let off some steam!

The positive side of my anger that it gives me confidence to do things I would have never done in my normal days

Astrologically speaking,I have got Scorpio in Mars ,Scorpio is about intense emotions and fearlessness and Mars is about Actions and impulsivity So It’s No wonder I’m only taking action when I feel such intense emotion like Anger

What scares me though is when my anger is directed at harming myself or others becoz anger is uncontrollable emotion that I find it is So Scary if I didn’t direct it wisely

When I really imagine the possibilities of things I could do when I get angry ,it is So Scary 

When I get angry ,I like to smash things ,curse,hit something with all my force luckily not people or myself ,shout or write it down 

But thank God ,ususally it takes Alot to make me lose my temper and I know how to calm myself down after a while so watch out peeps 😋😠😠

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Gifts

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It’s beautiful thing to see how just a thoughtful gift presented as an excuse can melt someone’s anger away

It’s the thought that counts

Gifts are great way of showing love and apprecation ,it is just saying without words “I’m thinking of you and you really matter to me”

I love gifts ,love to give and receive them but I love giving them more ,the joy and heartful moment when it touches someone’s heart is priceless to me 🙂

So give gifts to your loved ones ,show love ❤

Twin flames

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Twin flames

2015 I believe is my year of “spiritual awakening ” .I just feel more spiritually close to God more than Ever and I become so interested in new age topics like  Astrology,chakras ,meditation ,twin flames and soulmates and spirituality in general 

Recently I become obesessed with twin flame relationships and I would google it like crazy ,I thought twin flames and soulmates are the same thing but turned out they are two totally different things 

A twin flame is literally your other half ,your perfect match .when God created souls ,He created a soul and its twin ,one soul with masculine  energy and the other soul with feminine energy but every soul is a whole soul,two bodies share the same soul then they come here to Earth into physical body . The thing with male and female energies is that it is specific to geneder so a woman has the divine feminine energy and its twin soul the man has the masculine divine energy and together they become one when they reunite and reach divine oneness

Twin flame relationships are so rare and only few who are truly blessed marry their twin flames ,it’s like 1% rare becoz not everyone can handle the intensity of the twin flame relationship ,it’s like looking at yourself in the mirror the whole time becoz your twin flame will reflect everything about you ,the good and the bad

It’s said that before we come to Earth we As souls made contract or had an agreement with other souls to meet to achieve specific missions or learn certain lessons to help us in our journey here on Earth 

Twin flames are one of those souls with a particular mission ,they reunite the masculing and the feminine  of their polarity and experience oneness with the divine  so Twin flame relationship is predestined or we could say they are born to be together ,one soul in two bodies 

From Astrological prespective ,what I have read is that twin flames share the same element so twin flames could be both water or Air or fire or earth element 

Their ascendant could be in different signs but the rules of those planets is in the same element ,say if they both have ascendant in earth signs like virgo and taurus ,the rulers of those planets is Mercury and venus both planets share the air element 

The first twin flame in the entire universe is Adam and Eve ,God created Adam first as a soul then from this soul ,God created its twin which is Eve 

There are many signs that are mentioned online about how to recognize your twin flame , i would mention only those i believe to be true 

1-Recognition 

When twin flame first meet ,they recognize each other as a husband and wife even if they have never met before 

The female knows first becoz women are more intuitive and in touch with their feelings

When adam asked Eve “who are you”? She said she was created by God as his mate to be his shelter and He then recognized her as his wife

2- telepathy

You become able to read each other’s mind and even feel each other’s emotions

3- the mirror 

You see yourself in the eyes of your twin ,it’s like looking at yourself in the mirror ,you might even look alike 

4-you feel like you have met this person before ,like meeting them again after a long time and you might wonder to yourself “i know this person from somewhere but i cant remember “, there is this familiarity

5-intense eye contact

6-strong attraction like you never felt before ,” love at first sight”

7-feeling like yourself around this person 

The stages of the twin flame relationship :

This video explains the stages of the twin flame relationship

http://youtu.be/iiO4HSeLh2k

There is awakening on every level ,sexual (as explained in the video due to the expanision of the heart chakra and the flow of energy into all the other chakras ,all chakras get activtated upon meeting your twin flame) ,spiritual and on the personal level coming to realize the true nature of yourself and who you really are aside from the Egoic self 


I will gather here in this post everything I read about twin flames online and in books that i believe to be true and i will paraphrase it in my own words 

The twin souls complment each other if one has a trait ,the other twin complements him like if one is a good writer,the other would be a good speaker and vice versa

If a twin has 60% of a trait ,the other twin would have the remaining 40% of the trait as they both make one perfect whole

Looking at your twin is like looking at a mirror ,you see yourself in them ,the good ,the bad and the ugly 

And you twin can help you heal all your issues if you became aware of what they are refelcting back to you about yourself

One of the twin suffered from illness that doctors failed to know its reason and only your twin soul can help you heal 


There are alot more info about twin flames and their misson and  journey on Earth but i’ll write about that in future posts inshaAllah 



Nice is The New Fake!

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I hate hypricosy ,I can’t pretend to Like someone I really don’t like just for the sake of being nice although I would never be mean to someone on purpose just becoz I dont like them but I can’t be nice either ,I act distant ,cold and aloof and try my hardest to stay away from any kind of interaction that could lead to faking who I am or how I act! 

I don’t like “Shoulds” and I wont abide to the societal norm of etiquette or whatever

I don’t like the fake smiles,the flattery ,the fake compliments ,acting nice becoz you are supposed to be nice! 

I hate Nice but that doesn’t mean I like rude Either but for me ,Nice means Fake becoz Most of the people I know who are Nice are really Fake ,they hide who they really are ,their real thoughts and feelings and their real motivations becoz it’s not appropriate to express them! 

That’s why I love sincerity and brutal honesty no matter what and you gotta love sincere people even if they offend you becoz they are true to who they are and they are not afraid of showing it!

That’s why we live in a society of “Fake nice people “,people who won’t tell you the truth to your face but would gossip behind your back !

People who would lie to you lest they offend your feelings,as if finding out their lie wouldn’t!

People who smile when they actually want to cry ,this is fakeness too

People who hide their anger and look peaceful while they are burning inside ,fakeness again!

Friends who would ask about you only when they want something and suddenly they seem like they really missed you or knew you existed!!

When you say something and it offends someone ,you swear it’s not what you meant although you know deep down it’s the truth but you are lying to be nice!

When someone asks you your sincere opinion and you have to beat around the bush and say anything but the truth for the sake of being Nice!!

Even trying to living up to people’s expectations of you is Fake!

The same is true about manipulation ,using any tactic to avoid telling the truth is fakness!

I’m allergic to fake nice people ,people who won’t show their true colors ,the pleasers who won’t express their true thoughts and feelings lest they offend someone or for the fear of being judged! 

Dr.Seuss said it best” Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind”

Be who you are ,the good ,the bad and the ugly ,expose yourself ,express the true You ,say what you mean and mean what you say ,tell on yourself ,own your worst negative traits and don’t be ashamed to say I’m such and such even if it is a negative trait like being lazy ,impatient or whatever ,this is part of who you and while you can work on yourself to improve but denying who you are or living in delusion won’t make you aware that there is something that needs to be changed to start with! ,don’t disown any trait you got ,own it and be You!

So Yes I don’t like Fake Nice and unless it’s Sincere Nice I won’t buy it and Never will!

So Folks, please be Sincere for the love of God 🙂

Negative people ,Give me a break! 

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I interacted today with this woman today and i felt so down when she told me all these sad stories of gloomy topics about death ,illness,bad people .i mean her negativity or sadness brought me down ,i felt like she dumped all her negativity on me ,i mean yeah i like talkative people but i dont like negative talkers and i also dont like people who talk about their personal lives all the time like it is the most important thing 

I get it that she is a kind lady and her experience in life revolves around her personal life but i couldn’t  care less ,yeah i could be curious to know a thing or two but i dont want to know your damn whole life story and i tried to be as gracious listener as possible but dont bring me down with you 

The only missing thing was a violin to play in the background ,i get her life is tough ,she suffered as most of people in this life do but please enough no need to tell ur life story to everyone 

I felt like she invaded my space and my privacy 

People in Egypt are damn nosey and talk too much and pretty self-centered i am not judging them ,that’s what i observed and that is the truth and they focus too much on what is wrong with their lives ,they gather to complain and cry and complain a little more like they really love that role of the victim like see i am kind and good and doing everything right and treat people kindly but life is such a bitch!!!

Seriously?!  i really had  enough of those people! Whiners! 

I luv people who spread joy ,simplicity ,happiness who smile and laugh in spite of their sadness ,no i dont like the people who suppress their sadness either or try to push it away or change it as if they dont want to feel any bad feelings,these people seem to me too cold and not human as if they want to be above the human experience but there is a big difference between being attached to your pain and sadness and make it your story and facing your life with positive attitude although it gets hard sometimes or at least to try to look at the positive and bright side of your life and to be grateful for what you have .i want to interact with positive people . i luv people who live like kids ,they cry when they r sad then they forget after a minute and laugh ,they r always living in the now enjoying life ,they dont get attached to pain,anger or sadness ,AlhamdulilAllah to some degree i live with the spirit of a child and that’s what i luv about me 🙂