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Astrology ,Soul lessons and themes!

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Yesterday I had a dream that I had a chance to get back at someone ,to get even!

Although I really can’t carry out that revenge plan in real life but I felt strong desire for Revenge in the dream and I knew this desire is buried deep in my subconscious!

That is understandable as scorpio,I have that strong desire for Revenge when Someone hurts me badly and wrong me!

But something I read yesterday plus that dream I had gave me some insight into something we usually are not aware of.While reading about Astrology ,I found out that a person with “venus in Leo ” ,a person who has this placement in his natal chart, feels entitled to flirt or even have a love affair whenever they like! That made me mad at first ,it’s like someone feels entitled to cheat !!

So is that something a person with this placement can’t help doing or not ? aren’t we here on Earth in the first place to get over the dark side of us and evolve spiritually?

Each person was given specific themes and dark energies to deal with ,all of that is impeded in your natal chart,so your chart carries all the energies you have to deal with in your life whether it’s good or bad and in which areas these energies gonna manifest and your potential and tendencies as a person

So someone who has this placement has the tendency to cheat but everyone has the freedom to choose ,and can make a conscious choice to be very loyal and not to cheat,right?

But usually what happens is something totally different,this person falls easily for his dark side and follow his whims and desires and don’t resist his dark side and because this dark energy is in your natal chart ,it feels natural like it’s really who you are but that’s not true ,we are here to get over that dark energy and rise above it and not embrace it as part of us ,we shouldn’t accept or tolerate it in anyway but Instead we should resist being in our “dark comfort zone” , so to speak!

Like being a Scorpio ,I’m here to learn and master some scorpio themes ,for example if I resisted the dark side of Scorpio and that intense desire for Revenge and choose forgiveness instead ,I know that I’ll rise higher and evolve spiritually but it all depends on me to resist these dark urges when they arise inside of me and make a conscious choice ,a better choice that will help me to evolve and grow spiritually.

I think the real problem is that we forget that this life is a test and we have to endure the pain ,the struggle ,the obstacles and the challenges to be able to pass that test.

And that explains why some people are attracted to an abusive person or are in very abusive relationships ,and they can’t stop the abuse or get out of the relationship!

At first,there is a strong pull from the soul to learn certain lessons but after while ,the soul is trying to get our attention to what lessons we need to learn.

If we failed to learn the lesson ,the suffering will continue and the lessons will keep repeated as a “pattern” in all relationships until we break that vicious cycle and finally say “Aha, I got it”! That Aha moment will be the moment of transformation and Spiritual Evolution.

It’s all about learning the soul lessons ,evolving spiritually and becoming more conscious to expand the collective consciousness.

So what I really want to say is that you don’t have to act on your dark side ,desires and negative thoughts ,you have to become aware that what you are doing is wrong in the first place and don’t worry many messages will come to you to tell you “that this is wrong ,don’t do this or that” but you have to listen and Question all your actions ,motives and choices .Don’t fall for your dark side!

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Grateful

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I’m happy and I feel like crying too ,suddenly when you realize the wisdom of God you can’t help it but cry For many years I cried and suffered for thinking I’m So unlucky but I found out I’m lucky beyond my imagination.Every pain I have went through was a blessing in disguise

It took me years to get the meaning behind suffering ,it was for a reason which is to get me to my Destiny and I’m seeing my destiny unfolding and that’s rare ,very rare and beautiful and also challenging!

It empowers me to live my life determined and assured that I will get what I want someday somehow! 

I’m So thankful for all those who have helped me without knowing ,the hidden soldiers ,the angels in Human form ,I wish you all more happiness and success ,Life has never been better and I’m starting to figure it all out Eventually since I’ve been awakened and I feel like I’m on the right track and I am noticing synchronicities and signs that tell me Yes you are almost there ,keep going 🙂

Oh God I’m speechless ,Thank You ,Thank You,Thank You 🙂

Memorizing The Facts!

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There are 3 jobs i wanted and dreamed to become :Being detective,Writer and/or psychiatrist !
I’m Like any normal girl ,I lived in Egypt ,went to public school ,then college and get the certificate that i can just hang on the wall or soak it in the water then drink its water .In other words ,it’s so useless !!
I remember Adel Amam’s famous Quote in one of his plays ‘’de bald bat3et shahdat” “it’s a country that like certificates” and it’s so true ,we judge others status or education by their certificates instead of their actual knowledge while if we see the most successful people ,we would find most of them didn’t complete their studies or dropped out of school like Bill gates but they chased their passions and learn through self-study and get what they wanted and become successful !
tell me how many people who really Study something because they are interested in it or because they Luv it and want to learn more about it??? you can count these people on the fingers of one hand. Most of the students think of just passing the exams and their relationship with studying and books end there with the finals .They broke up becoz this relationship isn’t based on true love but rather the need to get something done and that’s it!!

since i was a little kid ,I was taught to memorize ,Learn everything by heart even in math or science ,we would study Facts ,facts and nothing but facts ,it’s Like “hard times” in dickens novel !!
and when I graduated I faced the hard and harsh reality ,No jobs!
All these years i wasted in studying and then Nothing! Yeah ,our government teaches us to be independent ,Go and find a job for yourself!
Most of the students in our beloved Country Lost faith in Learning.Let me tell you why
first ,you teach them from childhood like 5 or 6 to memorize ,and when these little curious creatures start to ask questions ,they got suppressed becoz who are you to question the teacher? or it’s just like that “haya kda” ,you will know later when you grow up!!

then when the children grow up ,they go to elementary school and they study more facts for 3 years .following that The Nightmare ,The horror which is called “High School” or as we call it in Egypt “ el thanwya el 3amma” and since it starts ,you find your parents putting so much pressure on you to study and study and never leave the book becoz your whole life and future depends on how high your score in the exams and that the more you memorize ,the better your chances of getting high grade and getting to the college you dream of or ironically the one your parents want !!

after leaving High school with its ups and downs ,you find the college world not much different but more years you spend in memorizing and that’s true for all the colleges like Law ,arts ,education ,etc etc .After you graduate ,you find that you wasted most of your years memorizing facts that you never use in real life or don’t benefit you in any practical way!
For God sake,Stop Memorizing!! understand why the hell you are doing this? what’s the point? if we are gonna change the future ,we must think of a creative way of doing things !
I Lost faith in the education system and come to embrace the self-study approach ,Study what you love, forget about “Study” ,that very word makes you feel like you gonna just work hard to get a high score on an exam .READ ,EXPlore,Discover ,Be curious about the world and USE your Brain to think about stuff that interest you .IF we have one life ,at least spend it Doing Something you actually Love and passionate about,anything else is just waste of time,money and effort and really doesn’t matter!

Basic Self-healing principles

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Excerpt from the book “Letting go :The pathway to surrender”


“We will delineate the basic principles that facilitated the process of self-healing. In doing this, there will be a review of some of the material we have already covered, so as to bring it together into an integrated overall experience. We will start with the basic working concepts:
• A thought is a “thing.” It has energy and form.

• The mind with its thoughts and feelings controls the body; therefore, to heal the body, thoughts and feelings need to be changed.

• What is held in mind tends to express itself through the body.

• The body is not the real self; it is like a puppet controlled by the mind.

• Beliefs that are unconscious can manifest as illness, even though there is no memory of the underlying beliefs.

• An illness tends to result from suppressed and repressed negative emotions, plus a thought that gives it a specific form (i.e., consciously or unconsciously, one particular illness is chosen rather than another).”
“Thoughts are caused by suppressed and repressed feelings. When a feeling is let go, thousands or even millions of thoughts that were activated by that feeling disappear.

• Although a specific belief can be cancelled and energy to it can be refused, it is generally a waste of time to try to change thinking itself.

• We surrender a feeling by allowing it be there without condemning, judging, or resisting it. We simply look at it, observe it, and allow it to be felt without trying to modify it. With the willingness to relinquish a feeling, it will run out in due time.

• A strong feeling may recur, which means there is more of it to be recognized and surrendered.

• In order to surrender a feeling, sometimes it is necessary to start by relinquishing the feeling that is there about the particular emotion (e.g., guilt that “I shouldn’t have this feeling”).

• In order to relinquish a feeling, sometimes it is necessary to acknowledge and let go of the underlying payoff of it (e.g., the “thrill” of anger and the “juice” of sympathy from being a helpless victim).”
“Feelings are not the real self. Whereas feelings are programs that come and go, the real inner Self always stays the same; therefore, it is necessary to stop identifying transient feelings as yourself.

• Ignore thoughts. They are merely endless rationalizations of inner feelings.

• No matter what is going on in life, keep the steadfast intention to surrender negative feelings as they arise.

• Make a decision that freedom is more desirable than having a negative feeling.”
“• Choose to surrender negative feelings rather than express them.

• Surrender resistance to and skepticism about positive feelings.

• Relinquish negative feelings but share positive ones.

• Notice that letting go is accompanied by a subtle, overall lighter feeling within yourself.

• Relinquishing a desire does not mean that you won’t get what you want. It merely clears the way for it to happen.

• Get it by “osmosis.” Put yourself in the aura of those who have what you want.

• “Like goes to like.” Associate with people who are using the same or similar motivation and who have the intention to expand their consciousness and to heal.”
“• Be aware that your inner state is known and transmitted. The people around you will intuit what you are feeling and thinking, even if you don’t verbalize it.

• Persistence pays off. Some symptoms or illnesses may disappear promptly; others may take months or years if the condition is very chronic.

• Let go of resisting the technique. Start the day with it. At the end of the day, take time out to relinquish any negative feelings left over from the day’s activities.

• You are only subject to what you hold in mind. You are only subject to a negative thought or belief if you consciously or unconsciously say that it applies to you.”
“• Stop giving the physical disorder a name; do not label it. A label is a whole program. Surrender what is actually felt, which are the sensations themselves. We cannot feel a disease. A disease is an abstract concept held in the mind. We cannot, for instance, feel “asthma.” It is helpful to ask, “What am I actually feeling?” Simply observe the physical sensations, such as, “Tightness in the chest, wheezing, a cough.” It is not possible, for example, to experience the thought, “I’m not getting enough air.” That is a fearful thought in the mind. It is a concept, a whole program called “asthma.” What is actually being experienced is a tension or a constriction in the throat or chest. The same principle goes for “ulcers” or any other disorder. We cannot feel “ulcers.” We feel a burning or piercing sensation. The word “ulcer” is a label and a program, and as soon as we use that word to label our experience, we identify ourselves with the whole “ulcer” program. Even the word “pain” is a program. In reality, we are feeling a specific body sensation. The process of self-healing goes more quickly when we let go of “labeling or giving a name to the various physical sensations.”


• The same is true with our feelings. Instead of putting labels and names on feelings, we can simply feel the feelings and let go of the energy behind them. It is not necessary to label a feeling “fear” in order to be aware of its energy and relinquish that energy.”

حوار مع صديقتى المثالية جدا

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تحدثت بالأمس مع صديقتى و احتد النقاش بيننا حيث كانا نناقش قضية هامة تدور حوال هذا التساؤل :هل فساد الدولة نتجية لفساد الأفراد أم نتجية لفساد المنظومة الحاكمة من رئيس و حكومة؟

ترى صديقتى أنها نتجية لفساد الأفراد حيث ترى أن الالتزام الأخلاقى للأفراد و التزامهم بتعاليم دينهم هو العامل الرئيسى فى نجاح الدولة فقلت لها أن نظرتها مثالية جدا و أنها تحلم بالمدينة الفاضلة حيث يلتزم الجميع بالأخلاق والدين و هذا غير ما يحدث على أرض الواقع حيث تشكل هذه الفئة الملتزمة أخلاقيا و دينيا نسبة ضئيلة جدا لا تتعدى الواحد فى المئة

ويوجد كلا الناقضيين الملتزم جدا بالأخلاق و المنحرف جدا و الفاسد على الطرف الأخر و فى الوسط يقع معظم البشر الذى يخلطون عملا صالحا بآخر سىء فكيف تمثل حالات فردية نجاح الدولة!

هل يكفى التزام مليون شخص مثلا لنجاح دولة من ٩٠ مليون فرد؟!

لماذا ينجح كل العلماء الذى يسافرون للعمل فى الخارج بينما لا يحققوا مثل هذا النجاح فى الداخل؟!

كان رأيى الذى قلته لها ان نجاح اى دولة نتجية لتطبيق القانون و قوة و نزاهة من يحكمون هذه الدولة 

فمؤسسات الدولة هى العمود الفقرى الذى يتحكم فى باقى الدولة و لن تتكمن اى دولة من النهوض بدون هذا العمود الفقرى القوى

ضربت لى مثلا كيف ان الدول الأوروبية يلتزمون أخلاقيا منذ البداية نتجية للتربية السليمة التى تؤدى فى النهاية الى دولة ناجحة و متطورة

ذكرت لها نفس المثال انهم فى الغرب والدول الأوروبية لا يلتزمون فقط بالأخلاق لكن بالقانون الذى يشكل لهم الرادع الأكبر فهم حين يخطأون يعلمون أنهم سوف يحاسبوا 

حتى فى الدين الذى يجعلك تلتزم بقواعد الدين هى فكرة الثواب و العقاب حيث ان النفس البشرية اذا تركت لأهوائها فأنها بالتأكيد تنحرف

قد يلتزم البعض لتمسكه بالأخلاق أو الدين أو التربية لكن سؤالى لها كيف نجعل دولة من ملايين الأفراد تلتزم بالقواعد الصحيحة ؟!

قالت لى مجددا التربية و التمسك بالدين و الأخلاق المفترض ان يتمسك بهم الجميع للنهوض بالدولة حيث التزام كل فرد هو ما يحدد نجاح الدولة ككل قلت لها كل هذا جميل ولكن ما يحدث على أرض الواقع ان فى المجتمع الكثير من المنحرفين الفاسدين و النصابين و المجرمين ما الذى يجعل و يجبر كل هؤلاء على الألتزام بالأخلاق و الدين؟

فى رأيى شىء واحد فقط هو الالتزام بالقانون و الخوف من العقاب ،كل شىء آخر فى رأيى هو مجرد أفتراضات و نظرة فلسفية لما يجب أن يحدث أو يكون!

من رأى منكم فيلم جوليا روبرتس قصة الفيلم مأخوذة من قصة واقعية حدثت بالفعل ،فى الفيلم جوليا روبرتس تعمل فى مكتب محاماة و تقوم بالعمل فى قضية فساد شركة مياه حيث أدى تلوث المياه فى منطقة معينة فى انتشار العديد من الأمراض نحن هنا نتكلم عن مؤسسة من مؤسسات الدولة الحكومية قامت جوليا برفع قضية ضد شركة المياة بعد ما قدمت كل الأدلة التى تثبت تضرر الناس منها ونجحت فى أن تحصل للمتضررين على تعويض بملايين الدولارات 

هذا هو الفرق بينا و بينهم ببساطة ففى الغرب حتى أن كان يوجد فساد فيوجد قانون يحاكم من يخطأ ولا سيادة لأحد فوق هذا القانون لكن فى بلدنا توجد الآف القوانين لا يتم تفعيلها او تطبيقها او حتى معقابة من يقوم بكسرها بأى شكل !!

فلنبدأ من البداية فعندما أصحو من النوم ولا أجد ماء أو كهرباء فأنى ألعن الدولة التى أعيش فيها التى لا توفر للمواطن أبسط الخدمات!

عندما أمشى فى شارع غير ممهد و ملئ بالقمامة أشعر بالأشمئزاز و أكره البلد التى لاتهتم بالنظافة تقول لى صديقتى المفروض أن نتعلم الأنلقى نلقى القمامة فى الشارع أوكى أنا مش هرمى بس متأكدة أن فى مليون غيرى هيرموا زبالة و يلوثوا البيئة!

عندما أضيع أكثر من عشرين عاما من عمرى فى تعليم لا فائدة منه لا ينمى مهاراتى و لا يعدنى لسوق العمل و لا يطور شخصيتى فأنى أسأل نفسى ما فائدة كل ذلك و ما فائدة هذه الورقة التى تسمى الشهادة التى أستطيع أن أبلها و أشرب ميتها!

أين هى الدولة التى من المفروض أن توفر لى تعليم جيد و وظيفة بعد التخرج؟!

أنى ألعن هذه البلد آلاف المرات و أكره هذا النظام الفاشل من أعماقى!

عندما لا أجد وسيلة مواصلات آدمية 

عندما لا أجد هواء و ماء نظيف فكل شئ فى هذه البلد ملوث حتى الأفكار!!

أنها دولة فاشلة بكل المقاييس ولا يمكن لفرد أن يغير دولة بأكملها مهما التزام بالقواعد وكان مواطن مثالى من الدرجة الأولى 

الدولة هى نتجية من يحكمها و يديرها و من يسن القوانين و يعاقب كل من يخرج عن القانون مهما كان منصبه!

ومع ذلك أنا أؤمن جدا بمقولة غاندى “كن أنت التغيير الذى تريد أن تراه فى العالم” علينا أن نلتزم نعم فى حياتنا من أجل أنفسنا و من أجل حياة أفضل لنا و لغيرنا لكن المسؤلية الحقيقية تقع على الدولة التى يجب أن توفر كل سبل العيش الكريم لمواطنيها

أحيانا فساد الدولة يؤدى إلى فساد الأفراد فأنك حين ترى المنظمومة كلها فاسدة فما أسهل أن تبرر لنفسك أن هذا الفساد و الظلم لا يواجه الا بنفس درجة الفساد فلتجأ الى التحايل و الكذب و الخداع من أجل فقط أن تعيش فى وسط هذا الكم من العفن!

لا يوجد دولة ناجحة تعانى جميع مؤسساتها من الفشل من تعليم وصحة وقضاء و شرطة الخ 

فعندما يغيب العدل والقانون فى الدولة يصبح كل شئ فاسد ويؤدى بها فى النهاية إلى الأنهيار و السقوط

أين نحن من عمر بن الخطاب (رضى الله عنه )الذى بكى لأنه لم يمهد طريق لدابة فى العراق هذا هو الحاكم الحقيقى للدولة الناجحة الحاكم الذى يشعر بحجم المسؤلية على عاتقه و يفعل كل ما فى وسعه ليوفر كل سبل الراحة و الأمان لشعبه و حينها يلتزم الشعب من نفسه لأنه يرى القدوة و المثل و أيضا القانون الذى يضع الجميع تحت قاعدة واحدة من الألتزام 

فهناك دولة قوية و دولة مهلبية وطب احنا عارفين نفسنا 😀

My Surrender To You

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I already trust You God but i want to trust You with something else my destiny! I always wanted to control everything in my life ,i never trusted anything ,i always believed that i need to be in control 

I know there are zillion ways to reach what I want and i tried everything in my hands until i reached my wit’s end 

Now i thought may be this is Your way God of trying to say to me “You have to surrender your need for control to get what you want ” 

Is it true God?

I don’t feel any resistance inside of me now

This is not the end of the story ,may be this is just the beginning 

I will get what I want one way or another ,i create my own reality and I’m So determined 

And i wont resist what is anymore ,i will go with the flow

I choose the path of least resistance 

I know You will always choose what is best for me 

I hope this is the lesson You want to teach me God

And I want to tell You I got the lesson already 

I am now on the right track

It is true God ,it is happening

I remember the day when I told You i feel great ,uplifted and happy 

God I am open to all the possibilities 

For the first time in my life ,i trust You with everything 

I know You will never let me down 

Yes God ,I say Yes to anything You choose for me 

I trust You God with my life ,i know You will take care of everything 

I know i can be aligned with my desires ,i allow my desires

As prophet ibrahim peace be upon him trusted You with his life,I surrender

As prophet Mosses said God With me ,He will guide me ,I trust You

As prophet Muhammad said God with Us ,I believe in You

As prophet Ibrahim trusted You and followed Your orders,again I surrender

So God guide me to the right path ,choose for me ,tell me what to do or what not to do

 I feel good,i feel aligned with what i want

There is no ounce of resistance inside my body

Please God answer me in any way possible

Thank You very much 🙂

The letting go experiment

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Currently I’m reading the book “Letting go : The pathway of surrender” and It’s about how to Let go of your attachments and desires ,how to let go of your emotions that bind you and keep you miserable .This book is really transforming and life-changing ,it puts everything in perspective I have to share this simple technique of Letting go becoz its results is mind-blowing 


Here’s an excerpt from the book


“Here was the initial experience with letting go of desire.

Personal goals were written down, followed by a letting go of the desire for them. It sounds paradoxical but that is the process: identify the goals and then let go of wanting them. One goal that had been held in mind for several years was an apartment in New York City, because work commitments required a lot of commuting and money spent on hotel rooms. A small apartment in the city—a so-called pied-à-terre—would be the economical solution. “Apartment in New York City” was written down as a goal. When utilizing this way of achieving goals, we include all of the details, as impossible as they may seem to the rational mind to achieve. So, the ideal apartment was detailed: reasonably priced, on Fifth Avenue in the 70s block, right next to an entrance to Central Park, at least eight or nine floors up and in the rear so that the street noise would be minimized, and not any bigger than about two and a half rooms.”


“The next day at work, it was busy as usual, with a big caseload, meetings, and patient visits. In between the meetings and patients, the feeling of wantingness for the apartment would be acknowledged and let go. And, as the day progressed, the apartment was actually forgotten. At 4:30 P.M., after the last patient, there was suddenly the impulse to drive into the city. Despite the fact that it was ostensibly rush hour, the road was clear and the drive took only half an hour. The car cruised to about 73rd and Lexington, pulling up to the nearest real estate office. Rather magically, there happened to be a parking space open right in front of the real estate office. The real estate officer, upon hearing the tongue-in-cheek announcement that an apartment on Fifth Avenue was desired, looked with surprise and said, “Well, you are certainly in luck! Exactly one hour ago we listed the only apartment for rent on all of Fifth Avenue, at 76th Street, on the ninth floor. It’s the rear apartment, two and a half rooms, and the rent is reasonable (rent-controlled at $500.00 a month). It has just been painted and you can move in any time.” So we walked over and viewed the apartment. It fit the description of the goal exactly. The lease was signed on the spot! Thus, within 24 hours of trying the letting go technique on a specific personal goal, the goal was a reality. It had been something that was almost impossible to find, and yet it happened exactly as pictured, effortlessly, and with no negative emotions. It was an easy and joyous experience.

This is not an unusual experience but a typical one, because in this case the desire was moderate and could, without much effort, be totally surrendered. By being totally surrendered, this means that it was okay if the apartment happened, and it was okay if it didn’t. Because of being totally surrendered, the impossible became possible, manifesting itself effortlessly and rapidly.”

 

when I read that I was skeptical,I thought this is too good to be true and only lucky people find things that easy but I was willing to give this experiment a try 

I wrote my goal down and I started with something small and it was buying clothes 

I wrote everything I wanted : the color,the price ,the size and the feelings It would make me feel when I wear it 

And then I let it go ,I said to myself wether I find it or not ,it’s okay with me and that’s the most important step of letting go and I went to a certain shop I know and lo and behold I found everything I wanted almost as I wrote it down ,it blew my mind .I said this technique really works!

And it’s so simple and anyone can do it ,choose any goal you want, write it down and be very specific ,write everything you want then let go of that goal ,say to yourself “it’s okay wether I have this thing or not ,it’s okay with me” .you also have to feel it deeply within you ,you can’t just say the words while your feelings are telling you something else .work on it and every time you feel attached to your goal ,let it go and voila it manifests in front of your eyes ,what a joyful experience 🙂

Life is meant to be easy ,just give it a try and see for yourself like I did.